What's to come....

As I sit here, trying to glare into the horizon that is my future, I realize it is very hard to imagine what it will truly be like.....being a mom I mean. Something that I have so far only been able to vaguely picture is about to become a reality in my life. I am thrilled and impatient. I feel like I have butterflies in my belly and can't wait for all of this to enter the next stage....the Parenthood stage. 

I feel that we are about to embark upon the most important journey of our lives.....to be responsible for another human being. I don't just mean keeping him/her alive, safe and comfortable......but more to teach him/her good values and empathy, to help build his/her self confidence, independence and ability to make choices and decisions in life without being too influenced by others....to help him/her build character.....a personality.....to know when to step in and when to step back......all of this objectively sorting out and using what are your good and healthy sides while ensuring your less good sides are not transferred. 

I have so many wishes and good intentions for this little life that is about to be born. We don't even know each other yet, but I am already head-over-heels in love.....to the point that when I feel him/her move, I can barely breathe out of the longing to hold him/her for the first time.

So here I am....at home......waiting......the hospital bag is packed, the nursery is as ready as it can be, we've done our research, bought way more than the recommended necessities, the birth preparation course is done, I'm getting my rest, practicing relaxation techniques, I'm eating, drinking and moving as recommended.....and yet, there is no way to really prepare for what's to come.... I only know that I will love this little life unconditionally and hope that this love will guide me in my new role as a MOM.

Counting down days..........

xox